just words

I love the madness that derives my soul
Infidelity drawn in short gasps and sighs of infamy
Populated thoughts that filled a barren mind
A sniper aims at my head I wait for the bullet
Playing a song in my head I wait for death and them other inevitable
Dum da ri did um dum dum da ri did um dum
Sang the cuckoo from its nest
I wasn’t tomorrow waiting for today
I was just lost in my caravan of woes
Dj wont u play my melody
Wont u ever set me free and all these worlds that lived in me
Random thoughts swirling in a lava lamp of confusion
Kisses and misses left on a platform for zombies
Plucking the petals off of this dying concert
My karaoke concert for the dumb and the mute
I remedy the brandy with cocaine
I remedy the love with pain
I’m the Jesus that died for himself
I’m the narcissus who was betrothed to his reflection
I am vanity inspired by starvation
I am love inspired by worse
Did I tell you about the time I died?
Just to see if I could fly
The curiosity sadly never killed this fucking cat
The bleeding never bottled the pain
Searching for the answer that died in me
I smother your tears with bruises
Smashing my thought into your head
Ramming my meaning into your being
Where did I die Sophia?
Where did I die ?????????????